Maybe it’s been a really long time since you’ve heard from the part of yourself who’s excited about your life. That’s not a good thing for you because when you’re disconnected from that part of yourself, well, you just don’t feel so great. Plain and simple.
Because really, at your core, you’re a majorly creative, sensitive type and life without that creative/sensitive part of you front and center is just plain ole flat—and that’s at its best. You and I know it can get a lot worse than “just plain ole flat.”
You try. You try really hard. Sometimes you can almost hear her, faintly, like she’s calling from far away. Other times it feels like she’s just out of reach, just around the corner. You lean in. You try to make out what she’s saying. But you can’t. There’s just too much static.
It’s so frustrating. It’s like trying to tune into a radio show you really, really, REALLY want to listen to but there’s so much static you can only hear every 6th word. It’s garbled. You catch a word here and there but it makes no sense.
I get into frazzle “pull my hair” out mode when I’ve been disconnected for too long (and let’s be honest, any amount of time is too long) from my inner voice/soul/essence. I get depressed and anxious. And that’s what happens to you.
I remember some years ago I was in New Mexico on day 3 or 4 of a weeklong retreat with one of my spiritual teachers. I was in an emotional rant and rave; so uncomfortable in my skin. I would gladly have crawled out of it if I could have. Literally. Major growing pains. I wanted to be centered and clear; graceful as I evolved; I wanted to be happy and full of life. Instead, I was the poster child for tightness, resistance and self sabotage.
I was in between sessions in my little house in the middle of this stunningly beautiful—I mean take your breath away—landscape. Pacing. Talking out loud. Muttering. Fuming. Trying to get away from myself.
Little voice in my head, “well, you could sit in meditation.”
Major flow of expletives back at that obnoxious little voice.
Agitation.
Irritation.
Let me the hell out of myself!
Get me away, anywhere but here.
“You could sit in meditation”. Gentle, soothing voice.
Soooo obnoxious. Sooooo irritating.
“You could sit in meditation.”
Eventually, I did. I sat down, crossed my legs, took a deep breath and closed my eyes. And then wow!…
It was one of those few times in my life where on a dime, the maelstrom stopped. It was like I had been standing in the middle of a massive storm, gusting winds, banging shutters, breaking trees, roaring rain and on a dime, the whole world stopped and I stepped into the most exquisite silence; the most beautiful full bodied peace.
I wish I could tell you that that’s what it’s like for me every time I get myself stuck in mental/emotional static and muck. It’s not!
What I know though, is that when you can’t hear your inner voice, you can’t see your internal compass. You can’t hear the whisperings of your soul—the life that wants to live through you.
And then it’s not long before the deliciousness of your life starts to mute and murk over.
You’re not meant to be muted and dulled; stuck in the mud; tuned into the static.
The static drains you. It angers you. It depresses you. It leaves you feeling like “what’s the point?” “I thought there was going to be so much more to my life… to me.”
You’re meant to be alive. So I want you to do something right this minute. Seriously. It won’t take long.
As soon as you finish reading this I want you to take a deep breath and close your eyes.
Then I want you to take another deep breath and another one.
And then I want you to tell your soul, your most creative infinite wellspring of inner life, that you want to tune in again. You want to live—fully and completely.
I want you to ask… “what is the best way for me to begin to silence the static? What is the best way for me to tune in?”
See what you get.
Be open.
It could be anything from spending 5 minutes in your garden every day to painting a birdhouse to starting a 5 minute a day meditation practice to getting some woo woo spirit cards to play with.
Please do this because your life can’t begin to be what it’s meant to be until you tune in and create static free spaces for yourself.
There’s life energy with your name on it that wants to live through you and that life coursing through the very fiber of your being is happiness incarnate. Pure and simple.
Here’s to your life my friend!
And before you go, take a moment and leave me a comment and let me know what you got.
